I just need a good CRY! (sniff, sniff) ;-(

I'm convinced more than ever that women are more apt to have stronger emotions, feelings of overwhelming and possible break downs more than a man is. The past two weeks months has been crazy in all sense of the word. I feel as though I have zero control over my two children, my husband has certain expectations of me that I can't seem to live up to, and every since I've been a full time SAHM my social life has been dead. I have missed church more than I ever have prior to before I was saved by Christ. I am 'spent', drained, and can not seem to get a foot hold on many of the things I once did. I'm afraid to go to church because I know the children's ministry will just ask me to help them watch the babies/kids, which I've done for so long and how can I say 'no' to helping out when needed? Yet I so badly want to be in service and bond with Christian females who visit one another, pray together, and possibly have kids the same ages. I desperately want females that share in my same faith to become great friends with! The only scenery and world I know is of being in the house 95% of the time with a 3 and 5 year old. Whereas my husband has a world outside of this, he is good about helping with the kids (at times) and is a great cook (otherwise we'd probably all die.). But he also gets to leave the house often to his job. Not saying that his job isn't hard work because believe me I know working with Acid is very dangerous work. But the point is that he gets that outlet to have a different scenery, a different world where he converses with male adults, sometimes cutting up jokes, sometimes enjoying lunch together, other times working. I'm not making excuses that 'Oh, poor is me that I can stay home and raise my own kids why he foots the bill.' Not at all; I'm just saying my main outlet is my adult talk online, which my husband says is turning into too much Internet usage. He's probably right though. Well he is right. When I read Lauryn's blog post about going on a 'blog-cation' (vacation from blogging) I thought that was such a neat and necessary thing to do when you realize what ones true priorities are. I might just ask her if I can 'steal' that idea and do this myself. I just need to regroup and get things in order so I don't go nuts. Please pray for me; as it stands my husband and I don't even pray as a couple like we once had and we fight more than we used to; mainly about how we differ in disciplining our kids, the lack of intimacy we share, the horrible, horrible heat, ect. I don't know what has come over me or us, but something has got to change for the betterment of our family, children, me. And I know what that change has to be; Christ. Please pray that God will help us to get our priorities in line, our house in order, our affections back where they once were and more imprortantly our prayer life on a regular basis. Thank you all so very much!